Am I right?? I wonder...

Long nights I have had thinking of what people think when they do something…..There are many things one does all round a day….Do we really think of it before we are done with it? I do many things and almost 95% of them are those which is against my conscience. I feel what Im doing is wrong but still I go ahead and do it. Well…….be it for good or bad when I try to change myself to do what I really want to do rather than doing it for the namesake I get caught in a huge dilemma. When I used to do things against my will everything used to be smooth……N now when I do something that gives me self satisfaction I face obstacles…. .. I dunno is it something wrong with me alone or does this happen with everyone???? I wonder……Do I have companions on this journey of mine????